"Suicide Me (AlponiAn PhilosophY TricK)": (DreaM)
My Body's dead
my brain got disconnected
my feelings want to hide again
no more tears will fall...
Vulnerability...
sweet and fragile
heart bleeding...
what's the next step?
Sometimes I just want to die
die again like on the last life
hide my feelings, lose my soul, kill my heart
But there's one more thing I want to do before I leave
make love to you... make you happy...
but what can I do?
what can I do?
cry? leave now? die again?
what can I do?
what can I do?
I have lost my life...
for you...
I know it's safe...
threw my feelings with no regret to the place...
where we used to be when we used to kiss for hours
then waking up to be staring at your eyes...
My Heart is so strange...
nobody can understand its whoreness...
Suicide... has become again an obsession for my life
an attempt to die... like a friend last week
that almost died for me...
Doubt in my best friend's head...
best friend of best friend despair...
simulating forbidden acts for you and me...
caught in camera for a second of bliss
Still having the same damn trauma
losing one, losing what I wanted
illusions of strange worlds
love that is forever strong enough
to break the waves of the island above
flying across some bedrooms
hiding myself from your mom
while we were kissing with our jolly rancher lips
making love without taking off a shirt
thinking that we were gods and it's nobody's fault
I will only blame on ourselves today...
I'll miss you sweet MavrI GatA
I can't let you go
I'll never let you go
I can't live without you anymore
but pain isn't enough for me
I need more and more
I want your love forever
even when I'll be dead and far in another floor
My obsession means two loves
two loves I die for
two loves I feel in my heart
two loves I psychosomatized for real
Fiction? everything is fiction
even ourselves
can't stop thinking about today...
It was so perfect
you and me...
I have never felt that before...
but what can I do?
die?
we are all already dead...
we must admit that we must be buried
before we stink...
why your son is so problematic?
tremendous image you reflect
turned off the monitor on its own static
you're amazed of those effects
I'm still waiting
I guess I will die waiting
sleep deprivation ruling the night
no food, no water, no fun...
just falling in love
yes, I'm in love with both of you
what I'm supposed to do?
I can't avoid your lips
I can't avoid your voice
I can't avoid your love...
Suicide is not a solution
but the nearest one pollution
try it before to pay
then you tell me who you are
Sick of the same
no blue on the hair
hard water in the cold
split some smiles in the floor
sacrificing for love
sacrificing my love
friendship, long time saviour
to die in the end of the storm
we found the girl raped
alone in the window of the Church
soon the island will be covered
in waves of snowballs
in waves of hands waving goodbye
will you die now?
or you'll wait a little more?
where did you put your feelings?
did you take them back?
Suicide Me...
alone waiting on the phone
watching a storm of shooting stars in the skies of the worlds
Come back to me...
I'll still visiting you
I'll still loving you
even when everyone wants to...
But not us
we will not accept your strange behavior
but try to accept me
or maybe try to still loving me
or I swear I'm going to die...
"People are not just shot twice in the head here,
they're shot 17 times," Weber said.
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